12.28.07    It's almost 2008 and this year has gone by so fast. I've decided since this site is so hard to navagate that I am just going to delete it at the first of the year. I have already started another site which will be easier to move around in. I will send to all the new address once I have it up and running. Thanks to all of you who tried to keep up with me on this difficult site.

12.7.07 Well, it looks like I need to keep up on this more. It's hard when I don't have Internet at home and can spend time updating. Right now I am house sitting for my cousin and have Internet available. Work has been going very well since we hired a new gal to help with my overload. It's taken some time to get her trained since she pretty much came into it the way I did, with no idea of how to process insurance claims. So the training will take some time but she seems to be fitting right in. What's kinda weird is that she is 26 and a single mom of 2 boys....the strange thing is, she is a cage fighter! That's right, she gets in the ring with guys and girls alike and fights them with almost no rules! Insane!   I have been going to a college and career class at church and I'm not sure it's a right fit for me. I'm the oldest one in the class besides the teachers who are in their 40's. Everyone else is fresh out of highschool. The lessons are always good and the people are nice but I'm just not sure if it fits me.  I'm excited...in two weeks...road trip!!! Home for Christmas!! Family to spend time with!  

11.19.07  Thanksgiving is almost here! Is everyone ready? I am making 2 pumpkin pies and am very excited to have family here to talk to and play games.It should be fun!!

11.5.07 Thanks to a dear friend, I was reminded of God's love for me and I can truly rely on Him to be there and take care of me in all things. I'm doing much better...

11.1.07 November?! I can't believe it! It's almost been a year since I left Spokane on a journey that would take me......Well, I haven't fully discover that yet. What exactly is my place in this world and where have the last 29 years gone? What a waste....nothing accomplished...it's really rather depressing. Crying alot at work and home...doesn't matter who is watching or there when I start...sometimes I am standing there at the front counter helping someone with tears running down my face, my eyes all puffy with no makeup on my face. Thankfully they just ignore me like I'm not totally losing it !! Today Dr. H told me that I was not on top of things with the billing department of my job. I did good until I sat down at my desk and looked at ALL the things that were TOP priority and had been TOP priority for a week....and it still wasn't done.... and then everything else started to build and down came the tears as I was typing away trying to get on top of a project that I had been working on all morning and that needed to get done before the end of the day! It's amazing to me how I can function when I'm so emotional....I have a feeling that SOMEONE told Dr. H. that I was crying and about 1/2 hour after he had just talked with me here he was in my space again...only this time he closed my doors. Bad news when that happens!!  He asked if we needed a third person in the office and were would I put them. I said that if I was on top of everything then we wouldn't need the third person and I should be able to handle it because it was my job. He said who told you that you have to handle it by yourself? I said that I think I should be able to do the job...but getting on top of everything with other stuff coming at me and new stuff all the time that I have to learn and be expected to keep up with all the back work and collections from the insurance companies....I'm crying this whole time and finally I said I'm stressed ALL the time and can't get a handle on everything. He finally asked me what position I see myself doing and being happy at....I told him that I like aspects of both jobs, front desk and billing, but that I can see my self being happier with the front dest and running patients more than chasing down money with the insurance companies. So now we are hiring a new staff person with the understanding that Kathy and myself are....what's the word? Well, I can't think at this point...something to the effect that we get top priority and we need to be happy. Dr.H. told me that I'm to come to him with ANYTHING that I might need to talk to him about weather it's a patient, or question on a PI case, or problems with the staff. I'm not suppose to cry and try to deal with it on my own but to go to him and he will take care of it. I can't believe that he is going to hire a person because I can't handle the job that he hired me for. But you know what he told me? I don't want to lose you...wow. And here I was ready to quit because I wasn't able to do the job he hired me to do. He said billing people are there own breed and are  anti social. Well, I guess that explanes why it doesn't work for me.  Dr.S asked if I got everything worked out and when I told him that I was mostly going to be running patients, he said that was best and a good fit for me. So in closing....wow this has been long....I'm feeling a little better about the job situation and not having to go look for a new job....now I just have to work over the rest of the stuff...!